Somehow he sensed that it was his duty to leave all these things behind; now
he belonged to this new world, removed from past, present, and future.
Little by little this new world surrounded him. He suffered many agonies,
journeyed through realms of desperation and loneliness‐appalling
peregrinations, for they transcended all his previous perceptions,
memories, and hopes. All horror lay in their newness and their splendor.